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My grandmother died last night. This wasn't a shock or a surprise. Her health has been on the decline, and she's been in hospice for the last month. She lived a long life, and in her final days she was surrounded by her three adult children.
My grandma was a kind woman. She wasn't perfect, but I always felt loved in her presence. She was a retired kindergarten teacher, and was still working when I was a kid. I have so many happy memories sitting at her kitchen table, and I'm going to carry those with me for the rest of my life. She was also proof that anyone who claims that you get more conservative as you get older is full of shit, because she certainly didn't.
I think it's interesting how the body processes grief sometimes. I don't know that I'll cry, but over the past month, knowing this was coming, I've felt a tension in my gut. Now that she's passed, instead of relief that tension is replaced by a sense of emptiness. That something is missing that should still be there. Something has been taken away, and I feel it.
Of course, as I wrote that, I immediately started crying... so I guess my body processes grief in pretty ordinary ways too.
I wanted to come up with something profound linking this to Beltane, which we sit in the middle of right now, but it just seemed hackneyed. Like I was trying to dig out some greater significance when the truth is death comes whenever it wants. The only predictable thing about it is that it's the end of all of our journeys. I hope that when I pass I'm so lucky to have lived such a long life with people that I love around me in my final days.
For the record, I will be fine. I just needed to get these words out while they were still in my head. I don't have some rousing conclusion or deep insight to tack on here at the end, just that gut feeling that something is missing.
Because it is.
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I trade early morning one man(woman lol) staffing for getting to go to sleep before midnight xD Granted i miss all the “fun” stuff but my department head isn’t mean enough to keep me from 6am to 3am lol I’m pretty much the only person outside from 7am to doors opening Friday and Saturday corralling lines, making sure artist ally people get in and answer questions for at least 2 hours
Is it because Sarah’s the newest staffer, or because she can outrun the stench?
Because she’s the newest.
You can’t outrun that odor.
You can outrun the worst of it… but then you’re gasping for breath in the rest of it, and end up worse off.
Only time I ever went in to a dance was AI 2008. More or less because I was trashed out of my gorge.
But my GOD, that does not leave your nose.
I hope Sarah kicks Veronica’s ass after the con. She probably could, she’s probably secretly a badass and know many ways to kick one’s ass and make them pay.big time. She probably knows a little of every martial arts including boxing, jujitsu, tae kwon do, karate, Some wrestling, grappling. And only because it was in her blocked schedule growing up since she probably had Baby Boomer parents who did that kind of thing with their kids.
Anyways to get back on topic, I hope she kicks Veronica’s ass after this con.
Sarah is not skilled in any martial arts. Whatsoever. No idea why you’d think that.
She is a very good soccer player though.
She kind of gives me an idea that she can kick someone’s ass.
Well she’ll kick Veronica in the shin
Worked a winter con with a all-weekend Battletech room with minimal ventilation and closed doors. Made “dance stink” seem like roses somewhere around late afternoon Saturday. You could almost see it roll out when the door opened…