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My grandmother died last night. This wasn't a shock or a surprise. Her health has been on the decline, and she's been in hospice for the last month. She lived a long life, and in her final days she was surrounded by her three adult children.
My grandma was a kind woman. She wasn't perfect, but I always felt loved in her presence. She was a retired kindergarten teacher, and was still working when I was a kid. I have so many happy memories sitting at her kitchen table, and I'm going to carry those with me for the rest of my life. She was also proof that anyone who claims that you get more conservative as you get older is full of shit, because she certainly didn't.
I think it's interesting how the body processes grief sometimes. I don't know that I'll cry, but over the past month, knowing this was coming, I've felt a tension in my gut. Now that she's passed, instead of relief that tension is replaced by a sense of emptiness. That something is missing that should still be there. Something has been taken away, and I feel it.
Of course, as I wrote that, I immediately started crying... so I guess my body processes grief in pretty ordinary ways too.
I wanted to come up with something profound linking this to Beltane, which we sit in the middle of right now, but it just seemed hackneyed. Like I was trying to dig out some greater significance when the truth is death comes whenever it wants. The only predictable thing about it is that it's the end of all of our journeys. I hope that when I pass I'm so lucky to have lived such a long life with people that I love around me in my final days.
For the record, I will be fine. I just needed to get these words out while they were still in my head. I don't have some rousing conclusion or deep insight to tack on here at the end, just that gut feeling that something is missing.
Because it is.
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Not to be “that guy”, but you have a typo. Garner’s word bubble says “how MAN hours have you worked”…
Don’t worry man, if you hadn’t, I would have.
Ugh, I gendered you based on your avatar… Sorry if I’m off-base.
Ugh. Thanks. I’ve fixed it.
You aren’t the first or the last to do it. Just about everyone I’ve seen with a comic that’s gone long term has put one up at one time or another. At least you didn’t end up with a typo that made the speech all seriously capital W wrong.
Oh, I do it all the time — I just usually notice and fix it within an hour of the comic going live 😛
I have been in Sarah’s shoes.
I split my time between the game room, dealers room, and working more security with nothin’ else to do. And the latter and the former often doubled up as ‘game room monitoring’, which I was able to do while playing games.
Sounds to me like it’s time for a nap…. then again, I tend to spend Con running a panel until 6am.
How much you wanna bet there’s a requirement of 16 hours worked to maintain a staff position? I know my con has that requirement.
If Sarah works teardown, that would give her at least one more hour (and many cons count double points for work done during teardown)