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My grandmother died last night. This wasn't a shock or a surprise. Her health has been on the decline, and she's been in hospice for the last month. She lived a long life, and in her final days she was surrounded by her three adult children.
My grandma was a kind woman. She wasn't perfect, but I always felt loved in her presence. She was a retired kindergarten teacher, and was still working when I was a kid. I have so many happy memories sitting at her kitchen table, and I'm going to carry those with me for the rest of my life. She was also proof that anyone who claims that you get more conservative as you get older is full of shit, because she certainly didn't.
I think it's interesting how the body processes grief sometimes. I don't know that I'll cry, but over the past month, knowing this was coming, I've felt a tension in my gut. Now that she's passed, instead of relief that tension is replaced by a sense of emptiness. That something is missing that should still be there. Something has been taken away, and I feel it.
Of course, as I wrote that, I immediately started crying... so I guess my body processes grief in pretty ordinary ways too.
I wanted to come up with something profound linking this to Beltane, which we sit in the middle of right now, but it just seemed hackneyed. Like I was trying to dig out some greater significance when the truth is death comes whenever it wants. The only predictable thing about it is that it's the end of all of our journeys. I hope that when I pass I'm so lucky to have lived such a long life with people that I love around me in my final days.
For the record, I will be fine. I just needed to get these words out while they were still in my head. I don't have some rousing conclusion or deep insight to tack on here at the end, just that gut feeling that something is missing.
Because it is.
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Artist Alley Table Rule #17: You will always get busiest exactly when you really need to be something else.
Rule #17-A: Acting busy to deliberately invoke this rule doesn’t work
Rule 17-b; The number of people coming to the table will be directly proportional to the need that one has to go to the rest room. The more you gotta go, the more people show up at your table.
Rule-17-b-2: Again, trying to use this deliberately doesn’t work.
Rule 17-b-3: You’ll stop being busy if you start peeing on people.
Mostly because you’ll get arrested.
But sometimes you do what you need to.
I feel there’s yet another layer for people who won’t go away when peed upon, but I don’t want to think about it too much…
Thats rule 34
She said the thing…
Even when i worked retail we knew better then to say the thing (was a joke at first but we quickly learned better) and id warn every new hire they always laughed…they learned
As a Dealer, I’ve long known that the best-ever “Summon Customers” Spell is to dash off to the restroom when the Dealers’ Room has been *dead* for ages. There’ll be at least half a dozen impatient folks clustered in your booth by the time you get back… :-}