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My grandmother died last night. This wasn't a shock or a surprise. Her health has been on the decline, and she's been in hospice for the last month. She lived a long life, and in her final days she was surrounded by her three adult children.
My grandma was a kind woman. She wasn't perfect, but I always felt loved in her presence. She was a retired kindergarten teacher, and was still working when I was a kid. I have so many happy memories sitting at her kitchen table, and I'm going to carry those with me for the rest of my life. She was also proof that anyone who claims that you get more conservative as you get older is full of shit, because she certainly didn't.
I think it's interesting how the body processes grief sometimes. I don't know that I'll cry, but over the past month, knowing this was coming, I've felt a tension in my gut. Now that she's passed, instead of relief that tension is replaced by a sense of emptiness. That something is missing that should still be there. Something has been taken away, and I feel it.
Of course, as I wrote that, I immediately started crying... so I guess my body processes grief in pretty ordinary ways too.
I wanted to come up with something profound linking this to Beltane, which we sit in the middle of right now, but it just seemed hackneyed. Like I was trying to dig out some greater significance when the truth is death comes whenever it wants. The only predictable thing about it is that it's the end of all of our journeys. I hope that when I pass I'm so lucky to have lived such a long life with people that I love around me in my final days.
For the record, I will be fine. I just needed to get these words out while they were still in my head. I don't have some rousing conclusion or deep insight to tack on here at the end, just that gut feeling that something is missing.
Because it is.
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Sarah, just trade rooms with her. It’s far better for both of you if you do.
I do NOT see this ending well.
Maybe it’s just me, but if I were told the Con was seriously short on cash, I’d find out my budget, and then do everything in my power to come in under that. My opening goal is half the former budget. I understand that depending on your department, that might not be possible, but still…
You assume most people have far more foresight than they actually have in my experience 😛
More I assume people who get put in charge should have foresight. I know most people don’t, but I like to think most people aren’t the ones put in charge. Experience has shown otherwise, but I keep hoping.
next meeting she should announce the next person who asks for there budget to be expanded instead gets it cut by 5% every time you ask
Able to justify =/= able to afford, and anybody who doesn’t understand that has no business working on anything with a budget…