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My grandmother died last night. This wasn't a shock or a surprise. Her health has been on the decline, and she's been in hospice for the last month. She lived a long life, and in her final days she was surrounded by her three adult children.
My grandma was a kind woman. She wasn't perfect, but I always felt loved in her presence. She was a retired kindergarten teacher, and was still working when I was a kid. I have so many happy memories sitting at her kitchen table, and I'm going to carry those with me for the rest of my life. She was also proof that anyone who claims that you get more conservative as you get older is full of shit, because she certainly didn't.
I think it's interesting how the body processes grief sometimes. I don't know that I'll cry, but over the past month, knowing this was coming, I've felt a tension in my gut. Now that she's passed, instead of relief that tension is replaced by a sense of emptiness. That something is missing that should still be there. Something has been taken away, and I feel it.
Of course, as I wrote that, I immediately started crying... so I guess my body processes grief in pretty ordinary ways too.
I wanted to come up with something profound linking this to Beltane, which we sit in the middle of right now, but it just seemed hackneyed. Like I was trying to dig out some greater significance when the truth is death comes whenever it wants. The only predictable thing about it is that it's the end of all of our journeys. I hope that when I pass I'm so lucky to have lived such a long life with people that I love around me in my final days.
For the record, I will be fine. I just needed to get these words out while they were still in my head. I don't have some rousing conclusion or deep insight to tack on here at the end, just that gut feeling that something is missing.
Because it is.
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This was a huge fear early on with our convention as well. Too much bullshit meant too little was getting done.
Wait, the meetings are WEEKLY?!
I’m guessing a huge majority of the staff must live nearby.
There are cons that don’t meet weekly?
Our Directors range from Colorado to Connecticut to Florida. The closest to our convention locale lives five hours away.
We meet formally twice a year. once at the convention and once four months before. There’s a fair bit of “Hey, we’re at this other con, let’s chat” but we do a LOT of email.
The month or so before the convention, certainly… the rest of the year… well, it’s established this isn’t a normal convention group… wasting that much time, they’d need to meet weekly to get anything accomplished.
Part of me thinks 4 hours isn’t so bad for a convention meeting, but that includes the time spent standing around bullshitting before and after…
We don’t go to weekly until we’re less than a month away from the con. It’s monthly most of the time then every three or so weeks
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Hey, at least they meet every week…it coulld have been a MONTHLY schedule…