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My grandmother died last night. This wasn't a shock or a surprise. Her health has been on the decline, and she's been in hospice for the last month. She lived a long life, and in her final days she was surrounded by her three adult children.
My grandma was a kind woman. She wasn't perfect, but I always felt loved in her presence. She was a retired kindergarten teacher, and was still working when I was a kid. I have so many happy memories sitting at her kitchen table, and I'm going to carry those with me for the rest of my life. She was also proof that anyone who claims that you get more conservative as you get older is full of shit, because she certainly didn't.
I think it's interesting how the body processes grief sometimes. I don't know that I'll cry, but over the past month, knowing this was coming, I've felt a tension in my gut. Now that she's passed, instead of relief that tension is replaced by a sense of emptiness. That something is missing that should still be there. Something has been taken away, and I feel it.
Of course, as I wrote that, I immediately started crying... so I guess my body processes grief in pretty ordinary ways too.
I wanted to come up with something profound linking this to Beltane, which we sit in the middle of right now, but it just seemed hackneyed. Like I was trying to dig out some greater significance when the truth is death comes whenever it wants. The only predictable thing about it is that it's the end of all of our journeys. I hope that when I pass I'm so lucky to have lived such a long life with people that I love around me in my final days.
For the record, I will be fine. I just needed to get these words out while they were still in my head. I don't have some rousing conclusion or deep insight to tack on here at the end, just that gut feeling that something is missing.
Because it is.
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That’s a rather interesting pattern on the carpet.
It’s from a real ugly hotel carpet
What is it about hotels and having ugly as shit and often migraine inducing carpet patterns?
It may just have to do with the limited pattern options for high traffic carpets. That and design fashion changes faster than the carpets wear out.
Given that most convention center carpets are rather ugly I believe it is intentional and is due to some marketing/hotel management dogma, such as the idea that a disinteresting carpet will make you interact more with people and therefore have a better time at the wedding reception, convention, or meeting you are attending.
@KORfan – given that most conventions and conferences destroy lots of furniture and carpets solely by its traffic, managers may do their best to get rid of the worst carpets in hotel and change them after con to more tamed designs (like these now popular little yellow squares in corners of imaginary big squares, that whole on bordeaux bg). You can always hope that you finally destroy it and next time will get no migraine from deep purple x bright green galaxies 😀
So… any anime in particular that they’re talking about?
Any and all of them (based on manga that has at least three volumes)
I’m guessing Wage Project
I just noticed that Rick the blond cop was in the same cop that talked to Phil a couple cons back when a congoer was trying be Batman.
Yep.
Always fun to be in the hotel lobby and seeing an arrest. It’s even better when its 7am and you’re just sitting there, drinking coffee waiting to go head to the con to work, watching a HEAVILY drunk man resisting arrest and trying to go back to sleep on the couch. Felt kind of sad no one else was awake to enjoy this with me.