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My grandmother died last night. This wasn't a shock or a surprise. Her health has been on the decline, and she's been in hospice for the last month. She lived a long life, and in her final days she was surrounded by her three adult children.
My grandma was a kind woman. She wasn't perfect, but I always felt loved in her presence. She was a retired kindergarten teacher, and was still working when I was a kid. I have so many happy memories sitting at her kitchen table, and I'm going to carry those with me for the rest of my life. She was also proof that anyone who claims that you get more conservative as you get older is full of shit, because she certainly didn't.
I think it's interesting how the body processes grief sometimes. I don't know that I'll cry, but over the past month, knowing this was coming, I've felt a tension in my gut. Now that she's passed, instead of relief that tension is replaced by a sense of emptiness. That something is missing that should still be there. Something has been taken away, and I feel it.
Of course, as I wrote that, I immediately started crying... so I guess my body processes grief in pretty ordinary ways too.
I wanted to come up with something profound linking this to Beltane, which we sit in the middle of right now, but it just seemed hackneyed. Like I was trying to dig out some greater significance when the truth is death comes whenever it wants. The only predictable thing about it is that it's the end of all of our journeys. I hope that when I pass I'm so lucky to have lived such a long life with people that I love around me in my final days.
For the record, I will be fine. I just needed to get these words out while they were still in my head. I don't have some rousing conclusion or deep insight to tack on here at the end, just that gut feeling that something is missing.
Because it is.
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There is no describing the Funk. It can only be experienced.
Come on I wanna See Sarah start a shin kicking the staffers responsible.
That’s one thing a staffer show have in their con survival pack, a nice gas mask to protect from after dance face melting funk.
not sure why but I see Sarah as a more talkative version Dina from shortpacked.
DINA FROM SHORTPACKED IS DEEEEEEEAD
correction… Dumbing of age
I don’t know why.
Dina in Dumbing of Age is very low energy, quiet and socially awkward, while Sarah is high energy, loud and outgoing. They’re both Asian girls who wear hats?
If Sarah has any similarity to a WIllis character, it’s Robin.
I was thinking that as well, though even then, there there are only a few similarities.
Kiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnn!
Oh con funk.this is why at our con all the staff has bottles of fabreze
Evil job. Evvvvvvil.
Either my nose simply didn’t want to know, or I should probably be eternally grateful that I’ve usually been driven off of the dance floor and out of the room very early on by the LOUD.