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My grandmother died last night. This wasn't a shock or a surprise. Her health has been on the decline, and she's been in hospice for the last month. She lived a long life, and in her final days she was surrounded by her three adult children.
My grandma was a kind woman. She wasn't perfect, but I always felt loved in her presence. She was a retired kindergarten teacher, and was still working when I was a kid. I have so many happy memories sitting at her kitchen table, and I'm going to carry those with me for the rest of my life. She was also proof that anyone who claims that you get more conservative as you get older is full of shit, because she certainly didn't.
I think it's interesting how the body processes grief sometimes. I don't know that I'll cry, but over the past month, knowing this was coming, I've felt a tension in my gut. Now that she's passed, instead of relief that tension is replaced by a sense of emptiness. That something is missing that should still be there. Something has been taken away, and I feel it.
Of course, as I wrote that, I immediately started crying... so I guess my body processes grief in pretty ordinary ways too.
I wanted to come up with something profound linking this to Beltane, which we sit in the middle of right now, but it just seemed hackneyed. Like I was trying to dig out some greater significance when the truth is death comes whenever it wants. The only predictable thing about it is that it's the end of all of our journeys. I hope that when I pass I'm so lucky to have lived such a long life with people that I love around me in my final days.
For the record, I will be fine. I just needed to get these words out while they were still in my head. I don't have some rousing conclusion or deep insight to tack on here at the end, just that gut feeling that something is missing.
Because it is.
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Staffers at 20 different cons are all going, “Hey, I know that building!”
Just pointing out, but isn’t this supposed be happening on the overnight shift? Seems odd the outside of the building would be daylight… either way, just desserts for that dude. 😀
Nah, the overnight shift ended a few comics ago. Remember, they were asking how Sarah did, and Lynn said she’d passed out. She was on her way back to her room for a nap when she saw him.
Insert Judy Dench’s reply to a similar remark…
Hoo boy. He really did NOT remember anything about the last time, did he?
He shouldn’t have stood under that pear tree.
Of all the things to NOT say in this situation…
Ah yes, one of my favorite gaming taglines… “Boyyy are YOU dumb!”
Dude, I don’t think there’s anything she doesn’t have the balls to do, or at least attempt.