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My grandmother died last night. This wasn't a shock or a surprise. Her health has been on the decline, and she's been in hospice for the last month. She lived a long life, and in her final days she was surrounded by her three adult children.
My grandma was a kind woman. She wasn't perfect, but I always felt loved in her presence. She was a retired kindergarten teacher, and was still working when I was a kid. I have so many happy memories sitting at her kitchen table, and I'm going to carry those with me for the rest of my life. She was also proof that anyone who claims that you get more conservative as you get older is full of shit, because she certainly didn't.
I think it's interesting how the body processes grief sometimes. I don't know that I'll cry, but over the past month, knowing this was coming, I've felt a tension in my gut. Now that she's passed, instead of relief that tension is replaced by a sense of emptiness. That something is missing that should still be there. Something has been taken away, and I feel it.
Of course, as I wrote that, I immediately started crying... so I guess my body processes grief in pretty ordinary ways too.
I wanted to come up with something profound linking this to Beltane, which we sit in the middle of right now, but it just seemed hackneyed. Like I was trying to dig out some greater significance when the truth is death comes whenever it wants. The only predictable thing about it is that it's the end of all of our journeys. I hope that when I pass I'm so lucky to have lived such a long life with people that I love around me in my final days.
For the record, I will be fine. I just needed to get these words out while they were still in my head. I don't have some rousing conclusion or deep insight to tack on here at the end, just that gut feeling that something is missing.
Because it is.
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Is this follow-up fall-out from the day before? I’ve known some conventions to bench or take off the floor staff members or volunteers who have drama tied to them; same-said conventions have also black-listed people from volunteering for drama/baggage
It isn’t.
Especially since Sarah wasn’t involved in that situation.
But I betcha Lynn is finding a bit more free time today.
This could be bad…. Sarah hyped up on caffeine and sugar with nothing to do.
I’ve got the popcorn ready 🙂
Eh, Sunday’s are often slow anyway, don’t always need a full staff. So long as everyone still gets invited to the afterparty… and clean-up detail… need lots of folks for that.
Let me know how you motivate your staff members to help with tear-down and clean-up; the ones at my primary con are lazy shits who care much more about free food than getting our stuff back on the truck
No food until cleanup is done. Also, no booze until cleanup is done. Between the two, it’s not bad.