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My grandmother died last night. This wasn't a shock or a surprise. Her health has been on the decline, and she's been in hospice for the last month. She lived a long life, and in her final days she was surrounded by her three adult children.
My grandma was a kind woman. She wasn't perfect, but I always felt loved in her presence. She was a retired kindergarten teacher, and was still working when I was a kid. I have so many happy memories sitting at her kitchen table, and I'm going to carry those with me for the rest of my life. She was also proof that anyone who claims that you get more conservative as you get older is full of shit, because she certainly didn't.
I think it's interesting how the body processes grief sometimes. I don't know that I'll cry, but over the past month, knowing this was coming, I've felt a tension in my gut. Now that she's passed, instead of relief that tension is replaced by a sense of emptiness. That something is missing that should still be there. Something has been taken away, and I feel it.
Of course, as I wrote that, I immediately started crying... so I guess my body processes grief in pretty ordinary ways too.
I wanted to come up with something profound linking this to Beltane, which we sit in the middle of right now, but it just seemed hackneyed. Like I was trying to dig out some greater significance when the truth is death comes whenever it wants. The only predictable thing about it is that it's the end of all of our journeys. I hope that when I pass I'm so lucky to have lived such a long life with people that I love around me in my final days.
For the record, I will be fine. I just needed to get these words out while they were still in my head. I don't have some rousing conclusion or deep insight to tack on here at the end, just that gut feeling that something is missing.
Because it is.
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GARNER!!! Yeah!!! Let’s bring him on board! He’s at the very least the least asshole person we know right now.
Join the con, Garner! We want you back in our lives!!
A useful jackhole > than an amiable useless type when you need to actually get things done. Sad, true, etc.
Garner will make things interesting at the very least…
Is Max coming back to the main cast? I kind of miss seeing him in the cast. But it is good to get Garner I bet he’ll be that guy who actually turns out to be a decent guy in the end.
Or he’ll just continue to be an annoying bastard that sometimes does good things. Not unrealistic, that.
No one is perfect but even with his tendencies to be an asshole, that doesn’t mean Garner is all around a bad person. Some people still have redeeming qualities to them. I think Garner has redeemed himself and I think Lynn is willing to tolerate him and keep him under wraps. But some people like Garner have their feasons for being who they are. We might look down on Garner for them but maybe they have a good cause behind. I can understand the frustration when someone new comes into the picture and suddenly becomes a figure of authority without much effort.