Current Post On Trae’s Blog:
My grandmother died last night. This wasn't a shock or a surprise. Her health has been on the decline, and she's been in hospice for the last month. She lived a long life, and in her final days she was surrounded by her three adult children.
My grandma was a kind woman. She wasn't perfect, but I always felt loved in her presence. She was a retired kindergarten teacher, and was still working when I was a kid. I have so many happy memories sitting at her kitchen table, and I'm going to carry those with me for the rest of my life. She was also proof that anyone who claims that you get more conservative as you get older is full of shit, because she certainly didn't.
I think it's interesting how the body processes grief sometimes. I don't know that I'll cry, but over the past month, knowing this was coming, I've felt a tension in my gut. Now that she's passed, instead of relief that tension is replaced by a sense of emptiness. That something is missing that should still be there. Something has been taken away, and I feel it.
Of course, as I wrote that, I immediately started crying... so I guess my body processes grief in pretty ordinary ways too.
I wanted to come up with something profound linking this to Beltane, which we sit in the middle of right now, but it just seemed hackneyed. Like I was trying to dig out some greater significance when the truth is death comes whenever it wants. The only predictable thing about it is that it's the end of all of our journeys. I hope that when I pass I'm so lucky to have lived such a long life with people that I love around me in my final days.
For the record, I will be fine. I just needed to get these words out while they were still in my head. I don't have some rousing conclusion or deep insight to tack on here at the end, just that gut feeling that something is missing.
Because it is.
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Of all people for him to harass! The only way it could be worse is if he approached a non-attendee guest of the hotel (I’m assuming this is a possibility since Max said they’re in a public space). I don’t imagine this will go over well for Terrence.
Max totally has this. He’ll knock this guy off his block.
Change the angle and poke him with your hair, Max!
Jokes aside, it’s possible that Max, having undoubtedly encountered plenty of overzealous noob staffers, will cut Terrence a generous amount of slack.
And then Terrence will probably press the issue…
A bit over-zealous but not too horrible considering who is saying it… and Max hasn’t used the “Don’t you know who I am!” thing yet.
I’m not angry with Terrance….. oh it’s a public space, god he is stupid.
I think you can mix in a little bit of a power Trip into this situation along with his own ignorance.
And now I’m trying to think “Who’s left on staff that remembers Max…”
I think we’ve got Veronica, Lynn, Awesome Roy, and Scrappy. Glenn? …is Glenn still on staff?
Institutional memory has weird patterns. Anthrocon has two individuals who still have Lifetime Sponsor-Level Memberships, and as neither has shown up in about 4-5 years, fewer people remember #1 Who they are #2 What they look like and #3 That they have those Lifetime Memberships.
…I should probably tell the current reg director in a properly keyworded email.
Most of the staff had contact with Max, so it’s not as few as you think… Ruth, Sarah, Barnes, and Noble all worked with Max and attended meetings with him. Heck, I think it was even Max that delivered the news to Ruth that she’d be taking over the role of hosting the cosplay contest. His departure was also fairly recent. I think it’s actually just Terrence that’s never met him before.
It’s been later than I thought that he left, heh. Noted!
I can see where it feels like longer since it’s a bi-weekly comic, lol
This reminds me of over zealous staff members the last convention I helped run where they were only meant to check for wristbands of people in the convention rooms not the public spaces we also had stuff and went trying to kick out members of the public from public spaces…