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My grandmother died last night. This wasn't a shock or a surprise. Her health has been on the decline, and she's been in hospice for the last month. She lived a long life, and in her final days she was surrounded by her three adult children.
My grandma was a kind woman. She wasn't perfect, but I always felt loved in her presence. She was a retired kindergarten teacher, and was still working when I was a kid. I have so many happy memories sitting at her kitchen table, and I'm going to carry those with me for the rest of my life. She was also proof that anyone who claims that you get more conservative as you get older is full of shit, because she certainly didn't.
I think it's interesting how the body processes grief sometimes. I don't know that I'll cry, but over the past month, knowing this was coming, I've felt a tension in my gut. Now that she's passed, instead of relief that tension is replaced by a sense of emptiness. That something is missing that should still be there. Something has been taken away, and I feel it.
Of course, as I wrote that, I immediately started crying... so I guess my body processes grief in pretty ordinary ways too.
I wanted to come up with something profound linking this to Beltane, which we sit in the middle of right now, but it just seemed hackneyed. Like I was trying to dig out some greater significance when the truth is death comes whenever it wants. The only predictable thing about it is that it's the end of all of our journeys. I hope that when I pass I'm so lucky to have lived such a long life with people that I love around me in my final days.
For the record, I will be fine. I just needed to get these words out while they were still in my head. I don't have some rousing conclusion or deep insight to tack on here at the end, just that gut feeling that something is missing.
Because it is.
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Heh, so this is a case where Terrence will see a dude asleep in the video room and attempt to wake him up rather rudely just to show his power.
When Terrence comes to, we find out that the dude was active special forces and was only in the room to keep his GF company while she finishes her video room shift.
Ran a con near several military bases, So it was drilled in to all staffers that if you see anyone asleep in con space, to get the head of security. The above is a true story of one of our enthusiastic security grunts who thought he was the Terrence.
I got 20 bucks on assaults a homeless m as n and 10 on gets himself shot and blames ruthl
ooh this is going to go so well…Can’t wait to see how Ruth has to handle dealing with dudebro’s sorry butt when he goes to harrass some attendee/or staffer off shift to “control the chaos” that doesn’t exist at 4am because everyone is either asleep, or in the drunk tank having a blast being drunk.
Why am I thinking of the Coneheads right now?
I’m sorta thinking Ruth/security starts getting calls about some weirdo harassing guests…
Oh joy, loose cannon alert…